Six

Both Yuri and Dimitri sent me home, I alone had nothing to say, but Yuri can’t stop giving jokes about the looks on Pasha’s face when I had use my power on him. I shuddered as he spoke upon that subject. I was afraid of myself. Dimitri did not laugh about it, he did not reply either. But when Yuri changed the subject, immediately Dimitri joined in. I guess Yuri purposely spoke in Russian so that I wouldn’t understand. But this was the first time after we met each other again, Dimitri had actually laughed, and talk normally like some normal human with no regrets. It was like he had no duty to care about.
I couldn’t make myself to speak, as I could see his smile was so beautiful. Yuri is perfect as well, but somehow he had this bad boy look. I can’t deny that Dimitri had a bad ass look as well. Somehow, he gave me a feel that he was invincible, undefeatable. But Yuri is like a play boy, his hair was all perfectly comb and his smile has that pinch of playfulness in it. It was like looking at two different angels. They were both perfect.
‘After we drop you, we’ll be taking turns to guard you. Dimitri will be the one doing rounding, I’ll be close by the house at all time.’ Yuri said with his cheeky smile.
‘But…… I mean…… What if Janine ask me where have I when to? Or why you two drop me off. Or even ask about Jason!’ I asked.
‘Tell her we are Jason’s friends. And we were comforting you about his death as the police had found him dead in the forest due to and animal attack.’ Yuri said once again. I felt a striking pain in my chest. Am I to lie about Jason’s death? It hurts so much learning that Pasha was the one to kill Jason. He was totally innocent, and he was the one to die. I hated that fact. I hated myself. I could have saved him at the first place.
‘What did Pasha meant by Jason’s humanity is no longer there? When Jason saw me, it was like before, I mean…… soft and comforting.’ I asked.
‘When one human is turned into a vampire, his humanity would slowly leak away. He would start killing and he would want to kill more. The more he kills the more evil he would become. And in the end he would become so evil that everything that may seems nice to you, has a back stabbing evil plan. That boy must have killed over 20 people to become such an animal. Maybe that’s why Pasha killed him. But hey, either way there is no cure for that. Even you left it the way he is it won’t change a thing, you would still have to kill him. Either you kill him, or you’ll see him suffers. And PS, some of them kill and then feel remorse about it and they would torture themselves, in the end they would still kill. So which would you choose?’ Yuri asked.
I nodded, not knowing what to answer; I still hated Pasha for turning Jason into a vampire. He was innocent. If Pasha already known all these, why would he still do that to Jason? I gripped my hand into a fist and can’t help but punch the front sit. Yuri looked at me in shock and laughed.
‘Hey! Is not my fault, if you want to hit Pasha, be my guest. I hate the son of a bitch as well.’ Yuri said. His tone was like he was joking but somehow, at the end of his sentence there was a grunt. Is like he really wanted me to hit Pasha.
After Dimitri drop me off the front gate, I was right, Janine came rushing towards me and hugged me tightly. She checked every part of my body making sure I was alright. She looked at me all worried and shook her head.
‘Where have you been? I was looking all over the place for you! Didn’t you saw the news? Oh, God, you must be devastated.’ She hugged me once again. ‘You must have heard, didn’t you? That’s why you weren’t around. Oh, poor girl.’
Tears began to fall; it isn’t only because of Jason. It was because I had to lie to my family about this. Especially Janine, I had once promised her that I would tell her everything. I would treat her like my best friend. But with this I couldn’t, no, it’s too dangerous.
‘Who were the guys that sent you back?’ She asked. She must be trying to change the subject.
‘They were…..’ Something make me paused. I couldn’t tell her they were Jason’s friends. Because Janine knows everything about Jason, she knew that he wouldn’t have friends that are actually Russians. There is no way. ‘They’re Pasha’s friends. When I heard about it, Pasha and his friends brought me to the scene.’ I shuddered as I remember Pasha was the one that brought me to the place where Jason had killed over 20 people.
‘Pasha? Who’s that?’ She asked.
‘A new student in school, he was nice enough to bring me there.’ Another shivering cold wind blew against my skin. He was the one to be nice enough to bring me there to witness, the cruel doings of his.
‘O…… Come on in now. Even though we’re in Miami, the night breeze is freezing, so let’s go in and have dinner.’ Janine believed what I had said, without any suspicion at all.
After dinner, I slowly walk to that swing that we used to sit together, in that beautiful garden. As I sat down, I couldn’t help but flashed back the time we were together. I missed his bright smile, I missed his blue eyes. I missed everything about him. I pulled my leg up and hug them. Yuri and Dimitri must have started their rounding.
Guilt began to build within me, the last night I was waiting for Jason, my soul where somewhere else. I was thinking about Dimitri, I was day dreaming about him. Jason had loved me with all his heart, yet, that disgraceful me had fell in love with someone else. I hated myself.
Just as I was busy hating myself, Yuri appeared out of nowhere, standing as gracefully as ever with his cheeky smile, he looked at me. I looked up not knowing what to say.
‘Dimitri must have really loved you.’ He said.
‘Loved?’ I asked. What’s with the pass tense?
‘Well, he promised Pasha that it was ‘loved’ no longer ‘love’. But I could see it in his eyes, he is having problem facing the fact that you still have to marry Pasha.’ He replied.
I felt like a thousand needles stabbed straight into me. ‘Loved’? Must it be with the ‘ed’? I shook my head away from the topic and quickly changed it. ‘When I was with Jason and I was oblivious of the happenings, have you guys been around…… protecting me?’ I asked.
‘Yeah, me, Dimitri and ……’ He gave a short paused and sighed. It was like I was reminding him of something sad. ‘and Shane Wild.’ He continued.
‘I’ve never seen or heard of him before. I mean at least just now.’
‘He died.’
‘What? Did he died protecting me?!’ I asked.
He didn’t reply, his face was filled with sorrow. He seems so different from the Yuri I just met, he seems less carefree now. I felt like giving myself a slap as I realize that changing the topic away from Dimitri, in the end just brought up a Shane out of nowhere which had made the atmosphere way worst.
‘Dimitri is going rounding now. I will be close by. And tomorrow we’ll be going to school. No worries, we wouldn’t be like those movies like kind of body guards.’ He said with his cheeky smile once again.
School…… Rachel would just be proving how right she is right now. I am nothing but bad luck. Yes, I did cause Jason’s death. Tears began to fall from my eyes. For the first time in a very long time, I felt my heart aches so much. Realizing I’m the one that should have stayed away from Jason so that he would have been having fun partying right this moment instead of dead. And even before his death, he had to be falling straight into the depths of evil and he had to see himself turning into a monster.

Five

After that argument, we haven’t talk at all. Not even, when Karolina and he were supposed to talk about what to tell Adrian. In fact, I was not supposed to get Adrian involve in this. I was to act like nothing had happen in front of Adrian, which was quite impossible as my brother is always the one which caught me lying and get me busted.
I hated the fact that he wouldn’t want to let me fight for us to be together. After all that argument, I had a feeling that that had happened before. And I really don’t like it. All I wanted yesterday was just to kiss him, to hear him say I love you. But he wouldn’t, he kissed me, and everything was so wonderful until he backed off. Now, he wouldn’t talk to me. I felt the stinging pain in my heart.
‘Alice, this is Yuri Ivakov’ Karolina said. ‘He is one of the best of the guardians. He and Dimitri will be guarding you. You know about Dimitri right?’
‘Yeah, he’s the best in the whole of Russia. I am glad I am born in America! Even with a Russian ancestor.’ Yuri said.
He had brown hair with grey eyes, he wasn’t as tall as Dimitri but he was tall enough to mess with Dimitri’s hair and shoulder and made him laugh. This was the first time, I heard him laughed after we meet each other again.
‘As for Pasha, well, we have no control over him. He is a Royal, and a freaking dick! So, let him rot at school.’ She added. I chuckled at her last sentence. Then, I realize that I had forgotten someone, it wasn’t Pasha, but it is Jason! I had no idea what had happened to him after that, I needed to help him but I had no idea where is he.
‘Where’s Jason?’ I exclaimed.
‘Jason?’ Dimitri asked. That was the first word he said to me after the fight.
‘Yes! Before you saved me from Pasha, Pasha made Jason stay there! Pasha was the one which changed Jason into a vampire!’
‘I didn’t see anyone there but a pile of dead bodies.’ Dimitri said.
‘What? He was there! I saw him!’ I exclaimed.
‘Jason! Jason Davis?!’ Karolina asked.
‘Yes! My……’ I paused and realize that I was going to say boyfriend and it would hurt Dimitri,
‘His changed by Pasha! Oh! We need to find him now! How come you didn’t say anything about him? His a new born vampire, he is unstable and he is deadly, one wrong move and he will blow our cover off and forever fall into the depths of the craving for blood! That means he will lose his humanity!’ She shouted.
‘Oh! God!’ I said.
‘No point looking for him.’ A familiar voice said. I turn and saw Pasha standing there with Jason. I sighed in relief.
Pasha smiled at me, and turned to Jason. Jason looked at Pasha with fear and I realize how haggard Jason looks. But when Jason was going to run, a flash of light was on my eyes, it was long like a stake and it was stabbed into Jason’s chest. My heart broke and fell to the ground. Blood flow down from Jason’s chest onto Pasha’s hands. Jason fell to the ground with his eyes open and I felt tears flow down from my eyes.
‘His gone, Alice. His humanity is gone, and I don’t like you worrying about other guys.’ Pasha said.
I felt the rage in me that was kept conceal had broken and broke through the walls I had build. I stood up and gaze at Pasha, Pasha looked at me and smiled. Lights began to flicker, windows and door can’t stop opening and closing, the glass began to break.
‘You have no rights to order me!’ I heard my voice it was horrifyingly scary. I couldn’t control my rage all I could feel was anger, hate, despair. It was like all these dark feelings running through my veins, I was about to kill him. Dimitri stood before me and held onto me but I kept focusing on Pasha as I could hear him shout in pain and fell to the ground. Dimitri kept shouting at me but I couldn’t hear him, all I want was to kill Pasha right now. Without even moving my fingers, Dimitri was thrown out of my way, and I was walking towards Pasha, he stood up and held onto me despite of the pain I was giving him. All of the sudden, everything stopped, the lights was back, the windows and doors are shut and no longer moving, Pasha was no longer in pain.
‘Don’t you dare to touch me!’ I shouted and there I slapped him.
After the turn I realize that I had snapped into something so scary and dark, those dark feelings that was swirling inside of me outburst, I was afraid. I shuddered and felt cold; I wanted someone to hug me out of what I did. I turn back to Dimitri and tears began to fall. I was not a person who would cry a lot but somehow, in front of Dimitri, I felt like there was no need to hide my fears.
But Dimitri just looked at me with those sad eyes, it was like he really wanted to come and kiss and hug me but he just can’t. Instead of Dimitri, Pasha came, he didn’t stop apologizing. Which was quite a surprise, I thought I was the one to apologize. When he hugged me, I felt so warm but there was a fear in my heart. A fear that I might fall to the evil sight of myself, the one which would not allow anyone to defy me, I was afraid of myself. Even at such a warm feel from Pasha’s hug, I hated him for killing Jason, whom was always the person filled with happiness and warmth. Whom I would had turn to if I was afraid. But now, everything changes, I am a vampire with royal blood, whom soon will be awaken and might throw the world upside down. Which I had wish, for this very moment, I was just a mere teenager.
But if I was just a mere teenager, I wouldn’t have felt such an amazing electrifying kiss from Dimitri, which I had long for more. Even now, he look at me with those cold, sad eyes, I felt like throwing my arms around his neck, hoping to make him smile. But some part of me told me it is impossible.